Healthy Food Blah's

This is pretty much how I'm feeling today. Taco Bell is screaming my name, I really want a vat of queso from the Rusty Taco, and if you put an entire cake with buttercream frosting in front of me, I'd take it down like a champ. Why does all of the food that is so bad for you have to taste so damn good?!?!

I did make myself a healthy buffalo chicken wrap for lunch so I got my "junk food" in with only a little bit of bad mixed in. I refuse to give up ranch dressing and the fat free stuff tastes like ass so light it is. Hidden Valley Light Buttermilk is unbelieveable. I'm so glad my friend Katie discovered it for me.

This week has been a struggle. It's been so humid and muggy and gross that I couldn't do my normal runs outside and then the night I was all gung ho, it was raining. The forces of nature are working against me and I'm not exactly sure what I did to piss them off. To top it off, we had vendors in the office so my attempts at eating healthy were kiboshed for a couple of days. The other days were spent with a plan to eat healthy until someone pissed me off (it happens regularly) and I turned to the junk. That right there is my downfall. I get mad and I eat. I'm trying to overcome that by keeping healthier snacks in my workstation and not carrying cash so I can't hit up the vending machine. It's been helping to pack a lunch but every day it seems like my willpower is overtaken by something. If anyone has any suggestions, I would love to hear them. No seriously, I want to know what you do. I'm terrible at holding myself accountable.

Tomorrow is the big 30-day reintegration for the Red Bulls. I am going under protest. I might sneak my iPad in and play Angry Birds while we're sitting in seminars about resiliance and employment and finances. My husband is back at work, we're getting along just fine (exactly as we were before he left), we don't have money troubles...what more do they want from me? I'm just a bitter betty because I don't want to spend the entire day sitting in the Mayo Civic Center with a bunch of soldiers and their wives (no offense to any of them who might read this). I have Glenn Jackson's 30th birthday party to get ready for people! Ugh, the 30-day can suck it!

Have a great weekend friends!