A Pisser of a Mood

As my title indicates, I'm in a pisser of a mood today. It started by getting to work and having to deal with crabby people who are at a hurricane level 6, as one of my co-workers put it. Other than that, I was having a semi decent day. I went out and had a quick beer after work with a few of my co-workers and chatted and laughed with my best friend on my drive home.

It started with me remembering that I needed to make treats for work tomorrow for our mini golf hole (it's kind of like I work on a cruise ship) and realizing that I had nothing in my kitchen that I needed to produce these treats. Nice husband said he would get what I needed but promptly forgot. This isn't the first time he has forgotten to do something that I've asked and I should have known better but that immediately set me off. As we're getting ready to leave the house for our 2-mile run, Rowan starts throwing a fit because he doesn't want to go outside and leave his trains. That immediately put the two of us at odds which ended in a shouting match over how many trains he could bring with in the jogging stroller. I know, I win the parent of the year award for yelling at my kid. What's new.

So we're out on said run and it's suddenly gotten muggy, which puts me in an even more foul mood. Rowan continued to torment us the whole way, whining and crying about wanting to walk but then wanting to be carried and finally I had just had enough. I couldn't enjoy my run, I was too hot, I didn't drink enough water today, and I kind of wanted to fling myself in front of a car. So, we ended up walking at least half of the two miles.

I should be happy that I at least did the two miles, even though I walked part of the way. But no, that seemed to irritate me more because I had a decent run on Saturday and today it went to hell in a handbasket. In my heart I know that I did just fine. I kept going even though I wanted to lay down and pretend the rest of the world didn't exist. Everyone has bad days and today turned out to be one of them for me. I know that along my journey, there's going to be good, bad, happy, sad, and mad days and I need to just go with the flow. Now if I could just tell my head that. Maybe beating it against a wall will help.